Again

I feel like singing ..

I heard from a friend today
And she said you were in town
Suddenly the memories came back to me in my mind..

Chorus:
How can I be strong I've asked myself
Time and time I've said
That I'll never fall in love with you again
A wounded heart you gave,
My soul you took away
Good intentions you had many,
I know you didI come from a place that hurts,
an' God knows how I've cried
And I never want to return
Never fall again

Making love to you oh it felt so good and
Oh so right
How can I be strong I've asked myself
Time and time I've said
That I'll never fall in love with you again
A wounded heart you gave,
My soul you took away
Good intentions you had many,
I know you didI come from a place that hurts,
an' God knows how I've cried
And I never want to return
Never fall again

So here we are alone again,
Didn't think it'd come to this
And to know it all began
With just a little kiss
I've come too close to happiness,
To have it swept away
Don't think I can take the pain
Never fall again

Kinda late in the game
And my heart is in your hands
Don't you stand there and then tell me
You love me
Then leave again
'Cause I'm falling in love with you again

Hold me, hold me
Don't ever let me go
Say it just one time
Say you love me
God knows I do love you again

Crushed

Finally my heart sank for I was trying to stay cool and calm for the past few ocassion. I don't think there's any more space for forgiveness. I can feel how broken hearted it is for you to withstand that tremendous pain. I think you are doing good already.

Did all the surreal moments and promises has been forgotten??

Above all, it was surely touching to see family unity when we are in need. Everyone just kneel and chanted vibrant daimoku. I felt it..

Sweet home Alabama

As I was selecting the radio channels, I heard this familiar tune. Flashback..the mimic and the laughter. It was some cute moments :)

Sweet home Alabama
Where the skies are so blue
Sweet home Alabama
Lord I'm coming home to you..

Edgewater

Jim Brickman, you made me cry ;(

Again, again and again.

Change

Got a call from a dear friend. A happy hello ended with a mellow goodbye. The news bothers me, and tortures me.. I'm keeping all my feelings at bay. Moving on gonna take some time b

Can we take the change??

EeDeeAss II

Ahh, tomorrow I’m officially 1 year old in ASFO. I guess this journey was never something I expected. Came in as a lost girl and here I am now in a land of greater responsibilities to address. I know the choice I made will bring me to another level as a person and as the comrade for the company. My gratitude to that someone who gave me the chance to be part of the team.

P/S: For any reason if I sound retarded to you Chuah, please tahan abit because in time I will arise as the mighty one :p

Jumble-laya

It’s all mixed up, jumbled up. I find that I’m not any good in expressing whatever that is within me although I talk like I know. Was it patience and love I had for jilafa or did I live in delusion? Sad? Yes I am. But most of all, I gave my all, my best, every drench of my effort to make it grow higher and taller. It was truly an awakening experience that money can’t buy.

Hamtaro

The L Word

The percentage of me as a lesbian was higher yesterday :-P

The L Word

While researching for the upcoming forum, this website lured me to play along with the quiz. So I got to know that this is what I am.

Exotica

Yes, I ate those!!

Go the Morrocan way

Minah had me bathe and shampooed just like how a mother bathe her little girl. The water temperature was slightly high but it complements my cold skin when I was drenched. Splish, splash..hehe. Then she applied black sea salt to get me ready for the gommage session. The end result, was splendid! Love it! Then had a chat with Minah and she wished me that I will find my prince charming. The finale was a soothing Ylang Ylang body massage. Nice:)

Can Lah...

I've not write for sometime. It is just me of letting things flow along the way and not fixing certain ideals or putting hope so that in return I'll just accept the way things supposed to be. I believe it was more good than the bad. Again, we know that our days is full of ups and downs and to be able to enjoy and live the fullest every single day requires courage, strength and determination. But we human tends to forget easily so I have to remind myself for that. I know I can and I know you can do it too!

Anyway, CNY is here and time flies.. Gong Xi Fa Cai

Highlights of 07

Happy New Year People!! More pictures on the way... Kindly click at the pictures to enlarge.

Chuan@Christchurch

Still reminiscing the times we had. The catfight, the me bully-er, the him-to talk to about family affairs.. Gave him a big bear hug, hold there for a few secs and I told myself to let go. I couldn't resist myself but to let go my tears. " Take care " he said.. then I turned and walked away from the boarding gate. Mom called later on and asked how I feel, I burst into tears again.. She was too..she said I will miss him but we agreed it's for his best.

Merely 24 hours after he left, we are all finally relieved that he's safely stepped his foot on the land of dramatic and picturesque view, New Zealand. We wished him the best of everything and have a blast of his life there.

Comeback

I know I've been away for too long. Sorry people!

To start, I've been a bumble bee at work.
At the same time contributing to Gakkai activities.

- The recent anti nuclear weapon exhibition, I've invited my brother to help out as coordinator for student programme. Starts at 8am to 5pm. He said "WAA!! Gotta wake up so early and no money to my pocket." Well, that's the thing you learn to contribute selflessly for the community, for the good of others. Ain't that noble! Then he agreed :)
- Shakubuku campaign, been working along my comrades to work for the happiness of others. We must be happy and also others too.
- Gokuyo, very happy that this year I'm able to make a little more contribution than the years before.

Shirley gave this piece of encouragement with me after I shared my experience with her.

President Ikeda
This spirit of engaging others in dialogue on equal terms is the essence of buddhism. Through dialogue, Shakyamuni opened hearts that were closed, softened hearts that had grown hard and melted hearts that were frozen.

PDZs'

Our time together is always full of laughter and it never fails to uplift my spirit. The transparency between us seems to ease all the one hundred thousand questions and doubts congesting in my mind. They can come out with the most hilarious joke that can make me turn 360.

We went through our happiest moment at work together. From learning Mandarin to learning English. From breakies to tea times. From pai kut png to char mi hun ker. From laughter to tears. Oww.. They taught me one thing. Not to judge at someone based on their appearance, although I know that at that point of time but I wasn't entirely aware of the gist. Til today, I always remind myself about that.

I know I'm pretty, fussy, authorative, short tempered and cute.. I know yaw'll still love me a lot..hehe..

Babies.. I can't wait to see you all again. Looking forward towards our plan!! I Love Yaw'll :)

Rattling Experience

Beautiful morning as I was cruisin along the highway. The after rain effect gives a blurry vision of the surrounding hills and I realized how beautiful Malaysia is. It's Merdeka eve and I'm feeling nice altho the radio was playing some emo break-up song. Well well, I was singing it out loud like never before. I picked up the phone as I was reaching the turn to my destination and I felt I was snow gliding and immediately I stepped on the paddle to stop. Without much hesitation, I tried my very best to manoeuvre the wheels as pro as I can just like how we drive in the virtual world of car racing. Left and right I went, even managed to>make a 360 degree turn and it stopped. Came down to see that my baby was badly damaged but glad that I don't feel an inch of pain.

Moral of the story: Do not sing overly emo when you are driving ;)

EeDeeAss

Put on my eye masque before I went to bed but still woke up with tired eyes. As a matter of fact, I had difficulty in sleeping last night so this morning I have a tough time fighting against the devil in me. I drag myself up, wash, changed and drove to work. It’s another 2 hours to end the day at work but I’m already dozing off. Shitty! Must be the regular afternoon naps and I can’t go online here. Ooh that sucks! Goodness gracious, I’m such a whiner. Sorry about that.

One Year

I know I have been quiet for sometime. To begin, the unemployment period seems nice. At first, it was weird but after a week I was getting used to it. I did sleep a little bit more on some days but gotta remind myself not to get easy and lazy. I have been visiting fashion boutiques regularly, pampering myself with facials and massage. Lunches, coffee with long evening talk, dinners and partying on Friday nites is almost ecstatic. What could I ask for more?

Anyway, officially blogging for 1 year. Happy Anniversary!!

Juggling June

I got a call from my father and he asked “Do you have anything valuable that you left in the house?” I asked “Why? They came in again?” My father said yes. Sigh.. They tried to break into my house a month ago but they failed because my aunt who’s living next door heard them. 2 months ago my other uncle who lived just behind the row of my house got break in too. Last 2 weeks, my laptop was stolen and that belongs to the company.^%#@* Only few days ago my friend’s house got break in and they were armed with parang. All this happen in the same neighbourhood. As I was heading back home, I was chanting in my heart that nothing much will be at lost but if they managed to, I have to accept that it is our family karma.

Some of the things we noticed throughout our search:

- Every drawer was ransacked and I thanked that we asked the maid to rearrange and put our things and clothes back in order.
- They switched my picture that I placed on my face mirror from right to left.
- They took the safe box. Fortunately there were only coins that my father kept for his business purposes. RM500
- My brother cash money, RM900. Poor boy must have worked so hard for his money.
- They left a fake Polo cap in the living hall and my friend suggested sending it to CSI, HA HA.
- Then they drew something using the joss stick ash on one of the Buddhist alter. My father said that the alter is the God that hold guard of the security and belongings of the house. My father believed that these actions are only known by people from the temple or they are able to perform trance. I’ve never heard about this before. Does this means they are seeking for permission or asking for forgiveness? Why did they do that? What they are doing is against any law in life and creating bad karma to their lives and for their next generation.
- I have to calculate my total loss for the day. After I thoroughly went through all my drawers, to my surprised, they didn’t took my jewellery, mobile phone and my precious camera. All were still intact although my room was in a total mess. I thanked Gohonzon that all these were not taken away from me. It is not on the price value but more on the sentimental value. They were sincere gifts from my parents, my aunt, and friends. My precious!