Flo Rida : Get Low

To begin with, summer is over. If there was a machine that allows you to turn back time once in a lifetime, I believe the queue will be crazy long with humans or even animals. Because plenty of us want to turn back time and amend some silly or careless mistake we have done and make it perfect. But how is that possible for now? It only exists in the movies. So to cut that crap out of my imagination, just stand up, catch your breathe and walk towards your planned destination. Gosh! This is always the most difficult part of life where everyone has to faced. Trying to overcome our selfish ego needs and bow to your opponent. Some run away by killing themselves. This is hell.

In Nichiren Buddhism, it teaches us how to get out from hell. I am glad that I am practicing it but at the same time, because I am a human, I can be ignorant at times and continue to be in hell or I could make an effort and make a difference to the ending. So what if I make a difference and it was an ending that I didn’t desire? Heh, it is a vicious cycle that we as human are “fortunate” to go through. We human are so powerful that we are able to see, feel and taste.

I, once felt that I was a hideous monster inside me. I am embarrassed at myself that I found the monster in me yesterday! How did I allow it to happen? There is no one to blame except myself. I was at the lowest (She hit the flo' , She hit the flo', Shawty got low low low low low)point of my life.

I am just writing this to remind myself that I still have faith and I am still capable to continue my journey. There were friendly support and happy news that encouraged me. I don’t know how the journey to the destination and how the ending is going to be. Right now, I am going to lift my head up, pen off and chant.